Inner Voice

I wanna write about xer. It's how I feel. It'll find a way of expression anyways.

<But you know what that means when you do. You know what staying on the topic translates to.>

Sure I do, but can I really help it?

<Maybe not, but you know the rational thought through this.>

Fine. Yes yes. "Guard yourself. You've been burned once arguably twice before."

<Correct.>

<You've been dreaming about xer.>

<Well...?>

Yes... I have. Only Twice.

<On consecutive days.>

<Don't you remember what of?>

Of course. I wrote them down like any other. And they were good dreams, in a nice way. It was sweet.

<You leave out the fear part in the second.>

Ugh fine then explanation:

First option:  I've been in that situation before and don't want to end up in that ending again... For good reason, that sucked. Residual fear.

Second option:  I had a vision and that ending is my future.

I'm more partial to the first theory. Time will tell the second eh, so not worrying about it.

<You gonna tell xer bout your past there?>

Probably. Definitely if xe asks about it.

<How much of it?>

Whatever xe asks for...you know how I run that.

<Hey answer what is asked; that's always been your game.>

Yeah, plus the fact I write like everything down.

<Now back to the original topic.>

Which was?

<You've written about Remy again.>

<Don't get in over your head quick.>

C'mon you know how careful I'm being here.

<I'm not talking about xer.>

<I mean you. You know you're a head case. You hold whatever perspective you want, but you can then go on to function as anyone else sees it. And because of that you have a false reality in a way.>

Don't bring her into this...yeah you know who I mean. 

And you really think that explanation makes any sense?

<To you it does.>

<Just be careful. And don't constantly use me as an escape from real life ice.>

Hey I don't. This is an organizer.

<Yeah, and it's still not enough to unravel your thoughts.>