Embodiment

~ Honey, this isn't even my final form ~

 

Version 1

I am existing.

Happy.

Taking up space.

It's easy.

Carefree.

 

Version 1.2

Existing.

Playing with friends is the best.

They're my guys.

 

~ please understand ~

~ that I'm just one of the guys ~

~ and also I'm not a guy ~

~ but you should totally treat me like them ~

~ except not ~

~ because I'm not a guy ~

~ just one of them ~

~ but not one of the guys ~

~ correct ~

 

Version 2.0

Embodiment?

 

She's nice.

The popular girl,

But I admire her.

Except…

Why can't I talk to her right?

 

~ hm ~

~ oh ~

~ hm? ~

~ whatever save it for high school ~

 

Version 2.1

Existing?

 

Oh. Right.

I trust you to catch me,

Cuz I'm pretty sure our teammates will drop me.

 

Best friends.

And hey I can talk to this one.

She's pretty and her hair is soft.

 

~ I like that you napped on my shoulder ~

~ it was wholesome ~

 

Version 2.2

Well this is different.

Guess I'll give it a go.

 

~ I'm sure I'll grow to love him ~

~ that's always how the movie ends ~

 

Hey you back there,

Still game to catch?

 

I didn't expect to fall so far. 

~ classic conundrum ~

~ not sure you ever got it ~

~ you said you did, but… ~

 

I tell her about him

~ but it's her I go to see ~

~ every day ~

~ 1 minute in the morning ~

~ 4 minutes in the afternoon ~

~ my favorite times of the day ~

 

I have the bell down to the second.

I know how to stay out of trouble.

 

 

Version 2.21

Embodiment?

 

Yay I have lunch friends again.

~ oh ~

~ you remind me of someone who used to have my back ~

 

And I think I know what's going on here.

~ he deserves better than this ~

~ the movies lie ~

Sorry bud, I messed up there. 

I was given tainted info.

 

~ ya know ~

~ maybe I just don't get that ~

~ if it protects her, I'm okay with it ~

~ she had my back so I'll have hers ~

 

Version 3

Embodiment.

I get it now,

And it's okay.

 

I'm not getting it right,

But I'm safe and making it through.

If I talk to enough girls I'm bound to get one.

Right?

 

Eh, not exactly.

But I like you.

You're a good person.

 

~ I wonder what happened to you, Remy ~

 

Version 3.12

Existing.

 

I see through the smokescreen.

I'm like you.

…my friends all those years ago…

…my guys…

But I don't have time for this.

 

~ whatever save it for college ~

 

Version 3.2

Embodiment?

Let me play.

I'll find the right balance.

 

It's a seesaw you know,

I haven't quite found the center.

Stuff keeps falling onto the ends.

 

~ you all help me, you know ~

~ I learn from your examples ~

~ I know it's okay to play trial and error ~

 

Version 3.21

Embodiment.

Amazing what a little honesty gets you.

I'm not a shell anymore.

Not a robot.

Not a doll.

 

I found personhood.

 

~ being a person is hard ~

~ embodiment is hard ~

~ sometimes my person disagrees with my body ~

 

Version 3.3

Embodiment is hard.

Embodiment is fluid.

Embodiment is control.

Embodiment is responsibility.