05:00

Awake.

Why am I awake?

I shouldn't be awake.

My mind is racing.

I feel uncertainty.

I can't open my eyes.

And I can't fall back asleep.

I think about names.

I think about school.

I think about homework

...so much homework.

I look at the clock. 

05:00

There's no reason to be awake.

But I am too anxious to sleep.

Until I remember,

The body has a funny way of using chemicals.

Does it count as self-medication

If I trick my body into releasing oxy?

I'm not sure

I like manipulating my mechanisms,

But it works.

I slip back into the abyss.