Hanging

It's funny

How life hangs in the balance

When we least expect it.

I wouldn't know,

Not from personal experience.

But, by proxy, yes.

That I understand.

One too many shit-shows.

One too many dark thoughts.

One too many tablets.

Let's throw another wrench:

Refuse help.

Well that complicates it

For the rest of us...

Is it really caring ethically

If we neglect your wants,

Because we want to follow the book?

Is it really good care

If we can't respect your wishes

When they don't align with our own?

Now let's throw this gear:

You don't actually want to die.

You intentionally acted

Non-lethally.

Since I believe

You aren't truly trying to die,

I cannot,

In good conscience,

Force formal outside help on you.

So I watch.

I keep you close.

I show you support.

I plan for the worst,

While hoping for the best.

And I do my best care.