Paralysis

I am scared.

I don't think I can play the game much longer;

Yes it's fun, fascinating even;

But people are getting scared… me included.

I have two options:

Play the game as I always have played

Or cut myself loose from chains I have bound.

If I cut myself off, how far will I fall?

What if I lose the friends I have?

Lose their trust and NEVER gain it back?

I do not know what to do…

I fear I have made the same mistake I witnessed in the past,

Thought I could do better;

Only to find out I am as lost as the ever.

But I know you are listening out there;

Help me decide.

Let's make a change,

Play the game your way.

Yes, I am turning tables;

Tell me what to do and I promise it done,

Even if it is hard for me to carry out.