Acid

Burning. Destructive. Lethal.

Cleansing. Productive. Helpful.

Burns the soul to the core;

Cleanses the rust and disintegrates the sore.

Causes destruction of nature's beauty;

Produces the fittest of nature's creativity.

Rots out that which is taken for granted,

As it clears out the lethlal substance once planted.

Self Representation

If I wear a t-shirt, people will think I am crazy;
The temperature is 32° outside.

If I wear a long sleeve t-shirt,
I will be seen as "normal".

If I eat from the school cafeteria,
people will judge me for eating "unhealthy".

If I eat a salad,
people may think I am a health fanatic.

If I cry in front of people,
they will feel uncomfortable.

If I remain callous,
I will feel fake and they think I am cold.

If I make friends with mainly one [racial] group of kids,
people will judge me as a racist.

If I make friends with a wide variety of people,
I will be overwhelmed by the number of people around me.

If I make friends in one particular group,
I will be labeled as a "_____".

If I make friends with different types of people,
I might not feel like I fully "belong" anywhere.

Repeat

What are we doing with ourselves?

Spend forever getting to know;

Spend thrice more searching blank shelves;

Spend infinity chasing our tails following the flow.

Come here and show me your interests,

As we lay near and hug close.

Move through my body like soft mist,

While the world comes to a close.

Roll over and play games for fun.

Fun for you maybe. Well me thinks not.

Think my reaction is funny? Like seeing my head run?

I find it fun too, but also hollow from rot.

Repeat. Repeat. Repeat.

It's all so fun until we find defeat, defeat, defeat.

EXAM TESTING

End of the course

X marks the failures

A marks the overachievers

More study time wanted

Tired of all the homework

Enter a new slate

Successful completion

Takes SO much time

I will miss these classes

Nothing to do afterwards

Go for the "A"

What We See

We see what we look for:

Look for blue cars... Now how many green cars did you see?

Probably none, right?

We see what we look for.

We interpret what we see by what we were looking for:

Scenerio 1:  

You are the "new kid".
In your mind, "Only mean kids don't have friends."

You see a kid sitting by herself.
You think, "She's alone; people must dislike her becaue she is mean... or something."

<Reality:  The kid by herself is shy and does not like to approach people. People assume she is not worth making friends with. You made a grave mistake in your thinking.>

Scenario 2:

You are the "new kid". Your old classmates decided you did not fit in, so you come from a place without friends.

You see a kid sitting alone.
You think, "Hmmm... I wonder if you are like me."

[approaches the kid]

The kid welcomes your company. You become friends. People see you together and wonder things about both of you. They are ignorant. They should get their heads out of pop culture.

<Reality:  You have greatly improved someone's life because you gave them the chance to be themselves. They are now forever there for you. You are forever there for them.>

We fear the unkown.

Where the road forks, we choose the path most predictable.

When we try to leave, we return to famiarity when trouble becomes too much.

When we encounter strange concepts, we struggle to wrap our heads around it. They get rejected, or abandoned all together.

We fear the unkown.

Better to Have?

Pro diarrhea:

<I like pooping better, cuz to me, all I have to do is sit and do nothing. Whereas with purging, it takes a lot, you gotta have buckets and stuff, you gotta deal with THT constant "gag", you gotta taste it, you gotta let the barf burn your throat (stomach acid, man)>
<Not to mention sticking your face in a toilet instead of your butt.>

<And take this analogy:>

<When I barf, I feel sick all over. When I leak poop, only my butt is sick.
And that "feeling of needing to spray the toilet with poop" is prettymuch the same feeling as needing to fart really badly>

<So if you ask me, I would rather sit and do nothing at all on the pot while leaking a poo than to shove my face in the stinky pot, eat my own poop, set fire to my throat, having to watch the mess come out right in front of my face, choking on my own excretement, having to deal with those occasional "oh I'm about to barf again" but it only being a false alarm, not to mention the smell of the crap (coming out right under ye nose) and especially the persistent nausea.>

<Not to mention you can't let out barf just anywhere, there's not always something it can go in if it comes up by surprise. Whereas with the poop, man that's what pants are for :P sure, it's nasty having to sit in it all day, and smelling like rotten poop, but people won't have proof that it's you>

Rebuttal (pro vomit):

"All you have to do is nothing". When you poop, even if it's pure liquid, you still have to use muscles to open your anus. And, unless you want poop stuck to your butt, you need to consciously keep it open.

"Sticking your face into a stinky toilet instead of your butt". You can smell your poop just like you can smell vomit. Bottom line, it'll smell bad either way.

"Barf burns your throat". True it does. But poop burns you butt after a while. And having to wipe after every leak will cause the anal tissue to become sensitive and burn. If you don't wipe after literally every leak, the poop germs on the skin will burn. Also, the repeated wiping can eventually cause hemorrhoids (which are a whole other problem and annoyance. 

"Can't vomit into something 24/7, but there's always pants". You can vomit anywhere and just clean it up after. If it's outside try to find where people won't step in it. Once you've vomited, it's done and you're done with it. If you leak into you pants, you can't necessarily change right away. The resulting germs against your skin could cause an infection. For instance, urinary track infection.

Nausea is a bother to deal with, but holding in poop is also no picnic.

Also, true that false alarms of throw up can occur, but if you have severe diarrhea, the need to fart is also a false alarm. You have no way of knowing if it'll be gas or feces.

Another reason why vomit is better to have:
If you're a girl on her period, diarrhea causes another whole slew of problems with changing tampons and such. With vomit, gender is irrelevant to the side effects.

Awake

Slept all afternoon, no will to remain conscious;

Awoken several times by raucous;

Returned to sleep where dreams are spacious.

23:30 and I could no longer snooze;

Sleep sounds peaceful, except I cannot choose;

For now fireworks erupt like rainbows over this cruise.

I bet they were beautiful, full of energy and good spirits.

But I prefer to sleep alone here in secret.

The new year is upon us, but time is only a habit.

I care not if the date is changed;

Time, after all, won't stop for even a moment;

Never has. Never will. Not in this life.

So why should I bother celebrating a new year?

It comes around annually arranged;

There a endless "new years" to come anyhow.

Slept until the new year, but now I stay awake…

Reading a book until sleep,

But it remains fleeting and useless as counting sheep.

Angry Signs

Libra

~I have done NOTHING against you~

Cancer

~YES YOU HAVE~

~I WAS HAVING A GOOD TIME~

~THEN YOU STARTED BLAMING EVERYTHING ON ME~

<Cries>

<Throws tantrum>

Libra/Scorpio

<Trying to sleep to shut out noise>

<………>

~IF Y'ALL DON'T SHUT UP I'M GONNA DECK Y'ALL AND KNOCK YOU OUT~

<Puts on headphones>

<Turns music up really loud>

[noise quiets]

Libra

To L/S:  ~Come with us to watch the New Years fireworks~

Libra/Scorpio

<Shakes head>

<Shutting out so doesn't kill [not literally] anyone>

[fireworks end]

[Libra and Taurus return from fireworks]

Cancer

<still crying>

<still thinks world is against it>

~Shut up~

~Trying to sleep~

~All you all have been to me tonight is MEAN~

Libra/Scorpio

<typing all this out so doesn't explode>

<Libra, learn to drop the conversation>

<Cancer, GROW #=%* UP; the world isn't against you>

<Taurus, THANK YOU for being the one sane person tonight>