The Whiteboard Exercise

How I've read it works:

Close eyes.

Imagine a whiteboard.

Imagine turning the whiteboard completely black

<by paint>

<by crayon>

<by pencil>

<by pen>

<whatever, user's choice>.

My version:

Close eyes.

Apply light pressure onto eyelid

<cause yellow-white circle to appear>.

<make the whole circle glow white-hot yellow>.

Dysphoria

It's about perception.

~The intersection of the 1st and 3rd person perspective~

~The awareness of duel perspectives~

~Knowing the perceptions don't align~.

Equally important: personal feels

~The intuitive "something's off"~

~The core imbalance~

~The not-quite-right few outsiders understand~.

The shifting current

~Unstable.~

~Context the magnetic rulebook.~

~Not controlled by an on/off switch~.

The dial

~The controller~

~Unpredictable~

~Untamable~

~Location recognizable...with practice~.

May

...cause anxiety.

...be a manifestation of anxiety.

...distract from the present.

The Sound of Silence

One hundred to zero in one shot.

Plunged into the abyss.

No hints in sight.

Let's play Risk.

A hundred small steps taken.

One major move made.

Your turn.

Now let's play Poker.

It's still your turn.

Test my patience...

I'm determined to let you move first.

Jump into Trouble.

It's all in the die.

Pop pop pop.

Better get lucky.

Double the fun. Monopoly.

Two dice. One goal.

A little luck, a little know-how.

Control the board.

Sorry.

Consider it a numbers game.

Slide into the safe zone.

Don't apologize for playing the game.

How about Yahtzee?

Look,

At least you have a chance here.

Anyone for Lines?

Okay.

Odds are I'll draw you a good one.

Know that slaps game?

It's the art of eye contact.

Watch my eyes...

Trust me yet?

5 Phases

Caring-

...about.

...for.

...giving.

...receiving.

...with.

The ethical qualities

Attentiveness

[Suspension of self-interest]

Responsibility

[Taking on the burden of responsibility]

Competence

[Awareness of limits/competencies]

Responsiveness

[Preparedness to address emerging needs]

(of givers and/or receivers)

Solidarity

[Plurality]

[Communication]

[Trust]

[Respect]

Epiphany

I already guess-worked this out.

I worked through my issues long ago.

I have a clear conscience.

I was ready for the future

In the past.

You are in a unique position.

You are brave in an unusual way.

You are human in the normal manifestations.

We're a dream team.

We're good together.
You and I.

I'd never met anyone like you before,

Who completely knew me,

Who accepted me as is,

Who gave me interesting conversations,

Who was willing to break norms.

I hope I am your equal.

Brother.